only lonely soldier

how could you
understand?
when there are
others, just like?

when you are
not lonely;
not in need,
despartely,
of companionship,
can you really say
that you understand?

i survivied,
through the wars;
where you -
your kind;
they killed 
my family.

i no longer have faith
in anything
i'm alone, to myself
sweat dripping down my face;
blood flowing throughout
my black feather wings

i was stabbed,
run-through,
driven to the brink of insanity--
i survived, though
some-how, i survived

my loneliness
a pain sharper than
any sword,
any claw

my loneliness 
angered me,
strengthened me,
made me fight,
so i could save other.
so i wouldn't be alone.

but, even through
the struggles,
they still all died.
i was still alone
to fight the gold ones --
the gold demons.

eventually, i was hurt.
a fatal injury.
i landed, and turned
into a human,
for easier walking.
i was dying.

then, there was a figure,
i saw it in the distance,
-he- came to me.
the almighty 
chaos dragon king

why?

he welcomed me,
he took care of me,
and made me into
a demon.
i was no longer lonely.

garv...
now you're gone.
now you're dead.
alone, alone again.
'i will fight,'
i declared.

i will, again, fight
against all,
because nothing matters
it should all die.
i am the
only lonely soldier.